Nanay

Much, I mean very much has been written and said about mothers and I am proud that I have one myself who is more than beautiful than any words that would describe her.

I practically grew up being belted yet loved, lambasted yet nurtured, scolded yet molded by my mother. During my teen years, I thought she was my greatest enemy as she often opposed to all my likings, protested to all my desires and hindered all my party invitations. I envied my friends whose moms are always ready to give them what they wanted, allowed them to go to party, praised them with all their small undertakings. I remember how she turned down one invitation from a friend that I really looked forward going, I cried and cried and to the point of not speaking to her in days. She just ignored me like I don't exist at all.

Then years passed by, I looked back at that scenes and I realized that she practically safeguarded me from all the bad marks this world could give. She was my silent superhero. She has gone against my tides. She has gone against my directions. It wasn't easy for her as she knew the pain I'm going through yet she has to be tough for me to learn, for me to be a better person, for me to be God-fearing, for me to learn how fly on my own anywhere I wished for without her presence. She equipped me well for my future battles in life with strength and goodwill.

And this woman could turn my world upside down! She is all I ever wanted when I get sick. When I was studying, is the only person that I want to go up with me in stage during recognitions. She is the very first person I talked if I achieved something. She is the only person who listened to me in my most boring time. Her touch is the most comfortable one; her embrace is the most reassuring, with her smile, I always knew I am home.

Now, I am married to a good man. I remember my mom used to tell us "good things come to those who wait". I confessed my wrong judgments, I had failures, I've gone nuts and I know I'm not exempted and cleared just because I admitted them. I'm still sorry but like my mom taught me; always learn from my mistakes. Only then I will become a whole as a human being, as a person. I am faring smoothly in life with my husband, there may be some sudden bad current along our sail yet I know I can always surpass it all, remember.. I'm a daughter of silent super mom!

I missed my Nanay. I may have called her every now and then, still, it's different when I could really feel her warm embrace. It’s always been uplifting to hear her voice but nothing could outshine the moments when we're together. Ahh, my mom… never really thought I could miss her that much.

Happy Birthday and I love you!

Tatay

You didn’t take a lot of effort to show how much you love me
Those times I thought you’re selfish, I was so wrong
I was blinded by my youthfulness
I was just as hard as you.

Didn’t pay so much attention for my big achievements
Rather, you looked into my small deeds for family and friends
Never give me so much to make it easy for me
You made it sure I just have enough to get through

You allowed me to argue yet listened carefully with my fight
You pushed yet guided me
You showed me how to walk in crooked pavement without your hand
You let me grow; taught and showed me everything I should know

God has been so good, for blessing me you
You did all you could to put love and grace in each and everyone of us
I just want to let you know I am truly gratified for what you’ve done
And thank you for the time you share and be a good father.

I know you are always there and never really left our side
I miss you, Tatay…and God knows how much.

I love you.
-monna-

Hunger

Quite here.

Seating in front of my pc, thinking...
I'm wondering, wandering.

People passes by, some are running... some are strolling...
I can see them but they are just like shadows
They seemed all empty, hollow.

I hear sounds but doesn't like music...
No beat
There is no rhyme.

Is this an indication I badly need a vacation?
Come October and hurry up!
So I can reset
Fill my senses.